Sometimes, I really suck.

Like now, when I promised a post a day, and didn't deliver yesterday. OH WELL.

In all seriousness, I feel like sometimes I should just quit. Like... life. I moved eight hundred miles from my home, where I was born and where I grew up. Where I made a life for myself. Away from my family, and from Phil. My friends are all scattered around the country. Sometimes I'm pretty sure what I'm spending thousands upon thousands of dollars to study is exactly what I don't want to do with my life. I never have money, I don't have a car, I don't get enough sleep, and Greeley, CO sucks BALLS. I'm pretty sure this is all pretty standard for the life of a college freshman.

On the flipside, I have A LOT to turn my frown upside down. I have great friends up here, I am working my ASS off, I can still call my mom thirty-one times a day with question after question, I'm going to be on my own next year, and the greatest thing that has ever happened in my life is still putting up with me after a year and a half. He loves ME. As shitty as things can get, I'm still sort of in awe of the things that go right.

This particular blog is probably pretty preachy or whatever, but I think it needs to be said.

Everything is going to be just fine. When I forget that, I know I can call my mom and Phil in tears, or I can run up to Megan's room at two in the morning, or I can go spend three weeks at Stephanie's apartment. Being the music lover that I am, there are a few songs that, without fail, get my head out of my ass and put just how good I have it in perspective. Some of them are cheesy (Journey?), some of them helped me survive the summer (Ryan Adams. Surprise surprise), all of them are great. It's like a musical pep rally just for me, if you will. Anthems.

I always say that the beauty of music is that there is a song for every thought, feeling, or emotion a human being is capable of knowing. There's a line from this play I love, The History Boys by Alan Bennett. "The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - that you'd thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you've never met, maybe even someone long dead." There is no possible way there isn't someone in the world who isn't feeling, or at some point felt, exactly what you are. No one is THAT alone.

If you're already in college and having a hard time, are having a hard time picking a college, dealing with kids who are having a hard time in college (Hi Mom and Dad. I know you read this. Cute.), or whatever your deal is, just take a listen to these songs. Or call me up. I GET it.

Yael Naim - New Soul
Motion City Soundtrack - Everything is Alright
The Beach Boys - Don't Worry Baby
Coldplay - Everything's Not Lost
Jimmy Eat World - The Middle
Ryan Adams - Goodnight, Rose (Easy Tiger Christmas Lights Session)
Journey - Don't Stop Believin'

Love, Lindsay